These past couple of days have been very, very busy. The one thing I find most challenging in times like these in dealing with Crohn’s is what to eat when I’m on the go. Most often I will have a granola bar and fresh fruit handy that I can grab and go. But there are times, like this week, where there seems to be nothing I can eat. I’m not great at pre-cooking food to take along, and pre-thinking what I will need for the coming few days. So…..often times I just don’t eat if there is nothing safe. Yuck….I don’t like being hungry.
I also don’t like how, since I’ve been so good for almost 2 years, it feels like it’s easier to slip and eat something I shouldn’t. Especially when I’m really hungry….it’s much harder to say no. Take for instance all the kids’ Halloween candy. It’s there…calling me. I know I love it. I know that it doesn’t necessarily love my gut. I resisted, for the most part. But even at that I’ve eaten more candy this week than in the past 2 years combined. Thankfully it has not been very bad on my system. That is NOT to say that, while on SCD, you can eat more candy. I just happened to slip this week and have not had that bad of results. I will keep telling myself though that I need to be careful. I know that I can’t shut off my sweet tooth and cravings for baked goods very well, and know that if I give myself an inch, soon I’ll be taking the whole rope. Then…well, life might not feel so good for a time!
Anyway….I’m taking some time to take care of me this morning. The sink is overflowing with dishes. The family needs clean clothes. The house is a mess. But…..I need some time for me. I might make some portable foods for me to take this weekend, since the busyness continues for the next couple of days. I think I’ve pushed my system about as far as I can push it, and need to just be a bit more aware and rein things in. I’m not feeling any particular side-effects of the past few days. I just know my body, and know I need to listen a bit more closely right now in order to avoid the things I don’t want to happen……
