Okay, so my attitude is generally pretty positive. And truly, that’s the way I live. I know it will all be okay. I know I don’t have to have all the answers. I know God’s got it in his hands.
But sometimes? It just sucks to have Crohn’s.
I am so tired today. I think it is likely due to my diet, maybe some of my Crohn’s. I’ve always tended to anemia. I’m still very scared to eat different foods. I eat a lot of chicken soup and yogurt. But that’s not enough. I love the weight I’m losing. I can still lose a bit more. But that’s not why I’m not eating. I’m just not hungry, and I don’t know sometimes what else I can put together for myself. I know I need to eat better, but…..it’s just so much work. And when you are drained, physically and emotionally? Just not gonna happen.
I do miss being able to just eat something when I’m tired. It’s too much work to make a smoothie, or heat up and eat soup. I can’t just get into the cupboard and chow on something, good or bad. I’d love a cup of coffee or hot cocoa right now. Tea just doesn’t sound appealing. I don’t crave anything, but I’m just missing it.
Yes, why did this have to happen to me? I know, I know….all the spiritual answers, and I get that.
I just do miss my old life sometimes.
God is in control.