Today is my birthday. Earlier, I said to myself, “what a crappy Birthday.” Just honesty here. It’s kinda not been the best today. Want my list?
Crohn’s: means I can’t go out to a nice dinner, have a glass of wine, and eat chocolate cake. I could have chicken, or fish. Exciting…..
Car: wouldn’t start this morning. Took it to the shop. $1200 and we’ll have it back by noon tomorrow.
Kids: son can’t hear. Too much fluid in his ears. Needs either A) drugs, or B) tubes again. Cost involved….2K if it’s the tubes. $100 for the drugs. But, do I want to flood my sons system with drugs again? I hear the UK doesn’t treat ear infections with antibiotics anymore.
Money is just kinda tight. To have to deal with all these things, on my birthday, just really stunk. I wanted some time today. I had my schedule and what I was going to do for myself. I ended up crying. I ended up telling God my sorrows. I want it to not be my birthday. I want the Crohn’s to go away so I can enjoy dinner.
Want my other list?
Crohn’s: I’m learning how to eat VERY good. It will translate to better eating for my family.
Car: My car will have had a good check-up, and should be fine for years to come.
Kids: My son is wonderful and bright. Even though he can’t hear you, he is able to stay on track in school through visual cues. Tonight he played his piano song upside-down and memorized. I’m calling him “My Little Mozart” now.
Life: I still have a roof over my head, food in my fridge, and family and friends who love me very much.
God: I still have a God who has never left my side.
I will be okay.