Holy cow!!! Okay, I will say it….I love these drugs!!! No, it’s not bad stuff. It’s vitamins and minerals and stuff to help me heal. But DANG…..it’s almost 10:00 at night and I feel so much energy inside me!!! I can’t tell you the last time I had this much energy, or stayed up this late without totally crashing. Every night for a long time it has been a struggle for me to just to stay awake until 9:00. I would go to bed at 8:00 on a normal night, but feel so lame about it that I force myself to stay awake longer.
Tonight I went shopping with friends, AFTER the kids went to bed. I laughed, giggled, told jokes, walked through a store with eyes open instead of in a dazed state, and I drove crazy circles in the parking lot. I just can’t express in words how good this has made me feel. I HAVE ENERGY!!!!
It’s more than that though.
For the first time in a long time, I feel like myself again. I feel alive. I feel that I can do things. I feel like I can be a good mom to my kids without having to say “no” because I can’t muster the energy. I feel like my house will not always be a mess. I feel like……..me.