Oh, but I was tired today. I just couldn’t seem to get any energy. Maybe I pushed myself too hard yesterday, but it was such a beautiful day! Almost 70 degrees, and my garden just beckoned me. It felt good to get a handle on the weeds before they got out of control, but over an hour of weeding I think really drained me. Either that or the malabsorption issue is coming into play. Ugh….
Either way, I just couldn’t muster much energy today. I pushed myself to do what I needed to do. Slow and steady, that’s the mantra for days like this. Do everything slow, steady, and with intent. If I stop for too long I might not start again.
I hate these types of days for what it does to me as a mom. I can’t handle problems with my kids as much. The kiddos were having trouble working together cleaning. My son came down, I think, to tell me how his sister was not cooperating. I couldn’t handle anything more, so I just yelled that I didn’t care, and that the two of them need to get going on cleaning. Sigh……
The kiddos realized they could have done better working together, but I wonder….if I would have had energy, could I have circumnavigated the arguments and not gotten angry with my son?
Tomorrow is a new day. For all of us. I’ll go to bed tonight not beating myself up too much, for I know that I love my kiddos beyond measure, and love them without regard to anything else. I know that at the end of the day I have done my best, for that day.
I just wish sometimes that my best was what I know I can do because my body allows me to, not just because it’s “only” what I can do that day because my body has limited me to that.
Someday, again, I’ll get back to that….