I find myself today “celebrating” 9 months on this diet, and having this disease of Crohn’s inside my body. I’m not sure if “celebrating” is the right word to use, but in a sense it works. I don’t celebrate having a life-long disease in me, but I do celebrate the strength and determination that God has given me to get through these first 9 months. Without His strength inside of me, I never would have made it this far. For that, I have a reason to celebrate.
In all honesty though, I’m pretty ambivalent about the 9-month mark. As I was thinking about it this morning, I realized that this has just become a way of life for me now. I don’t miss or crave the foods I can’t eat, and I just adjust wherever I go. In a sense, I guess I’ve gotten used to the Crohn’s as being a constant companion to me.
The challenge now will be to not be too complacent about it. I need to remember that by Jesus’ stripes, I have already been healed. I need to remember that my God does not want me to be sick. He loves me! Yes, this affliction may last for a while, but it is a foreign invader inside of me. I never want to get too comfortable with Crohn’s inside of me, because as soon as God’s timing is here, I want it gone! I will continue to learn how to live with this disease while I anxiously await the manifestation of his healing power inside of my life.
So today, I celebrate, and I give praise to my God. This trial is nothing that I cannot get through. He has already proven to me that He will strengthen my feet when they grow weary, and he will give sight to my eyes when I cannot see his blessings. I know I can make it through life. I know that I can live life with Crohn’s. I know that whatever mountains may come my way, God has a plan for me as I climb that mountain, and that I will never climb it alone. He will always be beside me, and victory is always certain because his Son has already won the battle.