Well, my son needed another 1/2 a cookie in order to make it fair. I didn’t want to just toss the cookie, so I wrapped it up in a napkin to take it home. We were in the car just a moment when I decided that it wouldn’t hurt to have just one small bite. And that first bite was amazing! All the creamy, fluffy, sweet goodness that I have missed all these months!
But then I couldn’t resist, and ate another bite, and another, and another, until the half a cookie was gone.
It shouldn’t be a problem….at least, I hope not. That’s more sugar than my body has had in 18 months total, all in one minute of indulgence. And sugar is one of the main trouble spots with how I am treating this Crohn’s. So, I’m hoping and praying that there are not consequences to my decision.
I’m also just puzzled why I would do that. When I finished the cookie, I just sat thinking about it. I didn’t need to eat the other bites. I’m not down on myself, just wondering…..why? I don’t feel like a failure, and I don’t feel like this will ruin my diet from here on out.
I guess maybe I’m a bit disappointed in myself though.
And honestly, now I’m not liking the taste of the cookie. That first bite was fine, but afterwords…..I just have this fake chemical after-taste in my mouth.
Maybe that’s a good thing. It will likely keep me from going and further. 🙂